I Had A Reoccurring Daydream

It's not like I want to dream or think about doing things that aren't nice but it happens.

As of late, it seems as though people like to come over to my place without calling, they just show up. The last unexpected and unwanted person was the owners' grandson who was told to check the deck railing. I told him about how his grandmother wrecked the heating system and he confirmed it because, "Grandpa looked after the heating system."

With the influx of people pulling into my driveway, I have anxieties about people deciding they need to come onto the property in which I'm paying the rent. Every time I hear a truck or a car, my stomach turns into knots and I listen carefully expecting the engine to stop and a knock on the door.

When I have these kinds of dreams it's usually in sets of four so here's the dream.

This is the door.

The Remax Property Manager is knocking on the door and I walk around the corner and I see him. I open the door, give him a left hook to the jaw, and kick his butt down the hill saying, "Your wife needs to call me."

The Remax Property Manager is knocking on the door and I walk around the corner and I see him. I open the door, give him a left hook to the jaw, kick him the knackers, and kick his butt down the hill saying, "Your wife needs to call me."

The Remax Property Manager is knocking on the door and I walk around the corner and I see him. I open the door, give him a left hook to the jaw, kick him in the knackers, take a stick and beat him down to the ground then I kick his butt down the hill saying, "Your wife needs to call me."

This is the stick I beat him with. It measures the amount of diesel in the tank. I wrote that it's an 1100 liter tank. The owner went through 3300 liters last winter when she resided here.

The Remax Property Manager is knocking on the door and I walk around the corner and I see him. I open the door, give him a left hook to the jaw, kick him in the knackers, grab a shovel and beat him down to the ground then I kick his butt down the hill saying, "Your wife needs to call me."

These are the shovels, which one would you like to use?

The whole, "Your wife needs to call me." is about how he told me that my husband had to call him about the heating problem and of course to this date my husband has not called. This Remax Property Manager doesn't give 24 hours notice he says that he might be there within the next couple of days and usually doesn't show up and has shown up with not even a phone call advising that he is showing up.

This is the 15 to 20 foot hill I kick his butt down.

I have to say that I pay the rent, this is my place and get off my property. Don't worry as soon as I can I'll be finding a new place to live.

This is just in case you didn't see how well Remax is represented. Doesn't this match the Remax commercials? Makes me want to call a Remax agent buy a house from them. (Heavy sarcasm)

I'm going to pay the rent today and I'm bringing this photo in so that the Managing Broker has some "pudding" to look at. :)

So I Had A Milestone Today

Did you see that when you clicked on my Facebook Page Terri_Callsen? Did you not like my page after that? Just wondering because having something edited or even to have something edited before it hits publication world may seem trivial to the rest of the world.

It should mean something. Most of the time in life we don't edit. Blogging, tweeting, facebooking, living, and interactions.

Back in 2006 I tested my market with the first three in The Outdoor Adventures of Charlie  and Kaylee series. I sold 80 sets in a 30 day period. This was back in the day when I was doing, oh yeah, the exact same thing I'm doing now, which is having very little capital to work with. Everybody loved them. I sold them to schools, they used them in their libraries, special classes, and in classrooms. Oh yes, it is quite the achievement. I personally sold them and then I found out that there are errors in the books. I've been anxiety ridden ever since.

I plan on replacing every copy I sold to each school because it has bothered me so much. I have my receipt book still so I can mail them. I'm looking forward to that day :)

I feel good about publishing Footprints knowing that there aren't any grammar, punctuation, accidentally misspelled words errors. I hope you do too.

You can expect the same standards set by Footprints for Hunting Fear, Lake Trout Fishing with Kaylee, Junior Hunters at Large, and It's So Hard To Tell.

I realize that what I write about and the specific information isn't what everyone is used to but you know what, kids going hunting, fishing, archery shoots, rifle shoots etc etc is going on as we speak. I know of probably 7 Facebook Pages where they're promoting it.

I write about maintaining a level ecosystem, I show you how to make a firepit, smoke signals, tan fur and leather, and of course mental illness awareness. I am Bipolar after all and you write about what you know. I've seen enough chemically imbalanced people to write their expressive levels :) I too, have been chemically imbalanced, and could possibly be so still but not like others who don't take medication. At least my depression levels don't last long and I don't express on facebook or twitter my complete depression. I'd rather share my happy times.

It comes to me that some may complain that it's too long to read. You're bad, be happy I'm letting you read these many pages and enjoy the fact that I care about quality. If you can't read it all, then I guess you could buy the book when it comes out. My goal for it remains in July 2012, just like it was back in October 2011. Professional publishing company, professional edit, and professional illustrations.

It's the only way I can feel good about my books. Are you happy yet? :)

A Poem For All Time

I am here

I have friends around

sometimes I fall down

God is here

with lots of friends around

He picks me up and puts me on the ground

We are here

everyone to cheer

with no fear

God is near

He hears

Let us never fear.

I Googled Myself Today

I was trying to think of a better title but nothing seems fitting.

This is a blog about the ups and downs of having Bipolar Disorder and I've been down. I've been trying to feel better but nothing seemed to be working so I decided to Google myself and click the next button.

The only person who can help me feel less depressed and all the emotions that lie there is me. Googling helped. I'm not sure how to interpret it but what I can say is that if you're depressed and trying to do something and you fall hard it could help. Do you have no will to create food, no will to write, no will to try, thinking that nobody likes your book, they don't like the conveyance of the messages, etc etc? I was there and this up moment may not last but it's a celebration of expression moment.

I might not have the best selling ebook out there but to be categorized with best selling under $15 made me feel hopeful.

From the beginning, I've always wanted to give partial proceeds to a charitable organization. That's just how I am, always wanting others not to experience what I have or am experiencing. I want this world to be a better place. So when I say I'm donating 25 cents from every sale of the ebook it's because I want to help. When I reach a minimum of $100 I'll be sending out a cheque. To send anything less doesn't seem like it would do much of anything. I'd like to see the money used to help make someone's day. It could be small like flowers, dinner for two, something that will provide a smile.

So if you feel down and crawling along the floor, google yourself and see what's going on in the internet world.