I'd like to talk about how as a person with bipolar disorder I have certain dislikes when it comes to situations. Today I have an appointment which leads to wanting to enlighten people what trigger grumpiness or not to return to a place.
I don't like being stared at. I've had too much being stared at from a dog. When ever anyone enters a room or building the automatic habit of everyone is to look up/around to see who it is. There is an appropriate level to the length. Now some of you may say something about my looks. Just because I look this way doesn't mean that you get to stare longer, I am insecure and when people stare too long it's like there is something wrong with me. I am Affective, that means if you're happy, I'm happy. I can feel when people stare at me or have a snotty presence. I'm going to repeat I am insecure remember and have large anxieties from being stared at too much.
I don't enjoy going to the doctor office or to a place where there are doors with a waiting room. Most offices aren't sound proof. Everyone hears what your problems are, especially if one is excited, or angry. For some a loud level is the normal voice level. For me, the door must be closed. Do not leave it open the rest of the world to hear what we're discussing. If it is closed at the beginning do not leave the door open if you left the office to do something. Don't even think about opening the door at any time during our encounter. It should be Mental Health policy that all doctor, counselling offices be sound proof for the privacy and protection of persons with a chemical imbalance.
Something that drives me is when I go to the hairdresser and they wreck my hair. It's like they do it on purpose because they don't like me. I could be wrong and they don't know how to cut my type of hair properly. Don't double book me and not call. If you're a small operation tell your clients who arrive early to find something else to do because I received a 75% hair cut. I don't enjoy other people around at my appointments because it feels like they're all staring at me with snotty attitudes. Don't expect me to be back anytime soon or ever if I have a choice.
I thought about taking photos of the places I like to go but thought everyone would think it's stupid. The point behind it was that as a person with bipolar disorder or any chemically imbalanced person has certain places they like to go. They don't go to other places where they received bad service or dislike things going on at places of businesses. My favorite movie store is closing and that makes me unhappy because I go there for a reason and if I can help "save" them then I shall because I've taken enough courses to know what to do and besides the fact that I love movies and have an extensive library. I don't want to go to the other movie rental store because of crappy parking, and there isn't the selection.
This leads to my happy level of returning to a hairdresser who cut my hair perfectly. I got to see her a couple of times then she left that hairdressing salon, went into business for herself but couldn't do the self employed part, relocated to a different town (I didn't know where she went) and while getting my hair cut learned she's back in town and I know where she works now.
I know that the whole being stared at issue does create some problems in regards to appearing on TV shows because one day I'd like to be on one. I keep telling myself that when that day comes it will be different; it will be wanted attention, not unwanted.
Something else that I'd like to discuss is how hard it is to deal with change. My hubby works at a mill where for two weeks he works during the day and then two weeks afternoons. Being of this way it is hard for me to be adjusted and the cycle is always there. By the time I start getting on and feeling like doing, his work schedule changes, then it's get used to functioning during that time period and soon he'll back to the other shift. I do wish that I knew of a chemically balancing medication that would make the constant changing have less down time.
Now to get ready for people and their unconscious behaviors.
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