I'm sure there are quite a few out there who think I'm callous, have no heart, etc etc etc because of how you perceive my words. What a majority forget is that you haven't been here with me during these years of mine that have accumulated repeated exposure situations, some turned to what may seem ridiculous anxieties so the level of perception is skewed; the immediate thought that comes from the subconscious mind is that this is the first time I am encountering a situation or problem because this is the first time you're reading about it.
The great thing about having 5 years, that's right 5 years of counselling, reading The Road Less Travelled, Embracing Ourselves, Men are From Mars Women are From Venus, Touched With Fire; The Manic Depressive Illness and the Artistic Temperament, Peripheral Visions and The Power of Full Engagement is that I have a great understanding of things which is one of the reasons why I look forward to being 40; I might be taken more seriously.
I do understand where your perception is coming from otherwise even you wouldn't know what is going on other than, "hey that chick seems mean/harsh etc etc I'm not sure if I should be friends with her" then you unfriend me. Ok that's your choice but it's because of your perception that deems me to be wrong when you're missing "the years prior".
I would like to think that I have a great ability which is the ability to "empty the cup". Emptying the cup is available to those who are cyclothematic. This means that a situation can keep occurring for a certain time period (mine's usually 6 months) then the counselling cognitive therapy kicks in; see the problem, come up with solutions to the problem, action is taken. Now in the case of my mother in law; I have been saying for the last 4 years that she needed a residential care aid. I was deemed the cow etc etc etc but the reality is that she lives alone and if she falls with no phone on her person she is stuck there until she can move. She is over weight and 2 years ago she rolled her ankle, ended up in a nonwalking cast and refused any residential care aid help back then. So now you know that it is all her that is denying herself help that is free because I looked up residential care aid programs and it's free for low income seniors such as herself.
I have to say that I'm glad she isn't my mother because she'd hate me more than she does now. She would not have a choice about whether or not she has a residential care aid to check on her, take her shopping, smell the roses in the park, sit for hours at the hospital to do blood tests and it would be free and I would not have to worry about her well being anymore. I would be able to relax and visit with her but not under the strain of what my hubby is doing now in his passive aggressive non creator of change ways. In my years I have noticed that both my hubby and his mother have Oppositional Defiance Disorder this means that if you tell/suggest to them that using a circle as a wheel is far more conducive than using the square one they will find a bigger square wheel and use that. Ok that was extreme but I am Bipolar after all and I have to be funny. Don't hate me for saying it, you don't know the woman. Be grateful and empathetic in her disordered self function that you don't have to worry about her every day even though she is how she is.
The next case is with this appearing to be a stray pregnant cat and I've been discussing my emotion on FB. You think I'm mean etc etc etc. I say I'd like to kick the person who appears to have abandoned this animal; I never said where I was going to kick them, gosh it could be in the foot because stubbing a toe hurts far longer and seems to be more painful. I am angry with the owners of this place because they lived here and if that cat was here then why didn't they deal with it? They have been living here for 10 years at least. Yes I am angry at the neighbours for not dealing with this.
Now this is the part where you get to learn about having "the more sticks in the fire the more likely one will catch fire" technique. I fb'd the owner about the problem at about 6am (no response from them and I unfriended them this evening), I fb'd the local radio station wall, i liked the SPCA fb wall and asked if there was one in 100 Mile House. I got the number, the email address, called the number, got grumpy about the rude voicemail message didn't leave a message, emailed the request, it came back, went back to the SPCA wall did the follow up, they responded with a link and the name of the person in charge in this town, I clicked on the link, called the SPCA number to talk to the Drive for Lives program but due to the rude voicemail message I encountered and the person didn't want to hear all the steps I've all ready taken just to find her I hung up. I liked Women for Premier Christy Clark fb page where I asked her to provide monies for a permanent SPCA shelter with monies to pay employees to work with the Drive For Lives program which incidentally was not on the voicemail message. I re-emailed the same request but it went through this time, I could have misspelled it but it went through. Oh and I advised that the "shelter" here needs some lessons in service because the message is very unprofessional but welcome to 100 Mile House and my unfortunate passion levels about business conduct that got sealed from watching Donald Trump's Apprentice except mine are more because of the range of emotion that I try to keep contained while consistently taking my medication.
I want you to think about this; if I go to this length to give a cat a home without getting "blood of death on my hands" imagine what I can do if given the opportunity to defend the US Constitution right to bear arms? I, Bipolarly confidently tell you that if I got to talk to the President of the US that you'd still have that right but there will be changes but not like the pendulum clock the President and all his members are being like. I will invoke change in the senior citizen residential care program I declare it to be so. Why? *Smiles large* I like Women for Premier Christy Clark fb page and if I write I know she'll see to it. Why will she? Because I said something, unlike the majority of the world who doesn't do anything to create positive change.
Then again maybe I've had too many years of counselling which is why I solve problems the way I do. mmmm? This "passion" is like a fire inside of me waiting to be unleashed in creating change which explains why my website is tlctouchedwithfire.wordpress.com; touched with fire also means bipolar disorder as well. yeah yeah lol I'm always thinking about having to explain the minutest detail so that you may understand it and I don't have to repeat it 3 times because that's how many times it takes for some who are mildly affected by Oppositional Defiance Disorder. Seriously it does, I read it in a book, a psychology textbook.
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